I just weighed myself for the first time in years. I thought I was going to cry. This may take alot more than I thought...
My starting weight
277.2 lbs
*gag* I think I just threw up in my mouth a little even putting that into writing....I don't think I'm going to chance saying it outloud just yet. :(
Ok...The worst part is over....I've admitted to myself that I finally need to get my act together. I've been watching other people do it for years and always thought "I dont have to do that...Im comfortable with who I am." I lied. Im NOT comfortable. Im miserable. I cant even stand to look at myself in a mirror anymore. I am 100% not the person that I want to be. Im not the person I NEED to be to be healthy. I cant see my feet when I stand up. I MISS MY FEET!
Tonight when my boyfriend and I went to bed we spooned....he put his big musclely arms around me and I cringed....I didnt want him to touch my stomach. I couldnt stand to have the man of my dreams put his hands on me. Its time for a change and Im meeting it head on. I want to be a woman he can be proud to show off. Someone who is comfortable in her own skin. Someone who is healthy and makes healthy decisions. I want to love me.
My Goals:
- to be UNDER 200lbs
- to chose fruits and veggies
- to drink water and ONLY water
- to exercise everyday for at least 30 mins
Now....wish me luck!
Colie, it has been a long time since I have seen you in person. But no joke, you have the most beautiful soul, and personality . Now you just have to work on the outer package all that inner beauty comes in. Fitness and good health make you feel good in all kinds of amazing ways. You got this!!! Find a 5k for the spring a start a walk/jog plan for it ! If you need anything let me know!
ReplyDeleteThanks Em! Its going to take some doing but it has to be done. I just need more people like you around ;) Love you and miss you soo much!
DeleteIf you find a 5k you want to train for, let me know. I'd love to run it with you!
DeleteI love you! You're not alone! We can do it together! We'll get to our goals! If you need anything, you know where I am :)
ReplyDeleteOne of my favorite quotes..."The choices we make, dictate the life we lead."
We'll get where we want to be! I have no doubt! You're one of the strongest women I know! Oh and when we both hit our goals...I say we will need to celebrate, perhaps a birthdaypalooza weekend complete with getting new clothes and tats?! <3
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DeleteCongratulations on your new goal, I love your blog, good idea, I also love you any weight you are YOU are a beautiful person. But you will feel so much better without the weight, leads to all kinds of health problems, look at me. I will try to lose with you I got weighed yesterday 189 and Im 5'3...not good...saw someone on Dr. Oz said try for 90/10 ...eat healthy 90% of the time and make 90% of your food choices healthy... I thought it sounded good...Dr. Oz has lots of good tips. I Love YOU and will do everything I can to support you!!! Good Luck!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Mum! I love you too! Thank you so much for being so supportive. :) If you wanna sneak into town we can go walking or I can come out that way when we get the jeep goin. Its easier to walk with the dogs lol They keep ya goin! Mocha needs it too!
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ReplyDeleteYour blog made me cry. I was in your shoes once. I weighed in at 250 lbs before I joined the military. I was told I was clinicly obese, and could not join. It pushed me hard to loose the wieght. I have lost 100 lbs since then. I am here for you, for support, and anything that you need, I will try to provide. Please keep blogging, I feel it will help me keep on track to a healthier life and you as well. My favorite site right now is laloosh.com on the right side of the site they have meal choices, the food is sooo healthy, easy to make, and very healthy (fills you up too). If your craving a snack, cut up some cucumbers, pour vinager and peper over it. It makes me feel like I get to eat chips at night. Plus you can snack on it at any time and it wont hurt your goal. Best of luck to you! You are so amazing to do this!
Dannybell85 is Danyell by the way. :)
Delete:) I had no idea you were that heavy....I never would have guessed! You are def an inspiration for me now! Thank you for your support and for your nice words...its def helping me stay motivated to hear from people who think I can do it!
DeleteI have the streech marks to prove it. And they are beautiful, I have definatly earned my stripes! And you will too!
DeleteYou talked about wanting to stay motivated. Saw this awesome video a friend posted on Facebook. It lights a fire. It inspired me, hope you like it too.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DriSmFYnUeo